The irreversible sign

Autumn has now come

I have another one on the wrist of my right hand

I am giddy and hate standing still in one place

But sometimes I’m really serious and totally depressed

I’m bipolar and I think I’m a little crazy

I love pop music and “You Belong With Me” is constantly stuck in my head

I walk really fast and if I leave you behind I’m not angry

I <3 writing anything: poetry essays, short stories, whatever

I’m totally indecisive

I love shopping for clothes

I make dirty jokes a lot

And I’m telling you all this hoping you’ll still say you love me

But the way you treat and raise me show it all,

It shows how cruel and painful you made me be.

You said you love me, but would you ever care…

For what you do and what you’ve done to me?

You said you care for me but why did you…

Take away the feeling of love from me?

You said you want me to have a happy life, but how would I

If you turned me to a person of no feeling and emotion?

You said you’ll do anything to make my life better.

But all I see is that you made my life broken and sad

And now as I look back at what you said,

And at what you have done

I notice all the things you said, were just lies

I let you go

Facing my worst fear
Realizing my heart could mend
From the pain and suffering
From the anguish and desolation
Finding solace and acceptance

I blindly embraced the hope of another season
of another smile
of another touch
of another joy

What is born and lives
Will wither and die
What I loved and cherished
Turned to strength and wisdom

If there is a heaven
We will lie next to each other again
If there is a chance
We will be together again
If there is another lifetime
We will love again

Because they’re cautious
Of tender, soothing warmth,
Derived seemingly from love,
Supported by hollow, callous charms

Because they’re naked
Even under cloth,
Pierced by amorphous winds
The strongest character cannot block

That’s why
Embracing the frost-laden breeze
Lonely hands freeze.

there was destruction.
but the darkness that lay claim to mankind chose not to take her.
the darkness that swallowed metal giants in a single moment, chose not to take her.
only he could see her.
here was Beauty. here was Grace; untouched.
in a world of darkness, here was Life.

Life.
singular, unspoken in the darkest of times.
so many, so few, believed in the truth, that Life would survive,
only as the darkness swallowed the city around them, in their sleep.
the swirls of color that survived, from her, rose from beneath metal giants,
through windows and keyholes and from the yards where all men were known to sleep.

here was Life, when no Life was known to have survived.
in the caves of humanity, in the crevices and dungeons where no dust could be found,
was a sudden flooding of light. Harmony.
yet there was no man, save for the single, that had the eyes to see this sudden burst
in the city of the iron giants.

a sharp intake of breath, a single sound after a year of silence. in, out. breathe.
for so long, he had forgotten. for so long, it had remained a mystery.
as the world crumbled down around him, the solitary,
it turned to listen.
no more, he asked. leave her be.

return, he asked, to the place where it began.
return to Life. return to Peace.

Now I put faith in what I’ve been told and what I know to be true to keep on a wavering line of sanity.

Told that the bad, the dark, the cold, all exist to make the positive, for without it there would be no contrast.

Know: that suffering brings us down to a level that humbles us.

Suffering makes us human, it is vital to sanity and the sanctity of being human

It is what makes truly sympathetic as we can honestly know what those around go through.

Finally found out of speculation, suffering provides solitude for one to ponder life and all of its aspects

Why we suffer, why we live, where we are going in life, where friends are in this time of need, whether what surrounds us is true or superficial, or whether we are stuck in a vicious cycle of society’s fray

This is the bright side of suffering,